I can't believe that my first quarter is over. I started doing progress reports on Friday. As I was seating there looking at my computer, it hit me, I am a quarter through my first year as a teacher. I guess time flies when your having fun! All right, let's be honest here, time flies whether your having fun or not!
We finished book #1 in the Magic Tree House series on Monday. After I realized how much they enjoyed the book, I informed them that I would by a few more books in the series during break. As soon as I was finished speaking, one of my student blurts out at the top of his lungs "CAUSE SHE'S BROKE" to the class. After the shock wore off, I proceeded to tell him that he has know idea how much money I have and that I do not have to spend my money on our classroom. I think time stopped for about three seconds as the rest of my kiddos stood there with their mouths wide open in utter shock that he yelled that, out loud, and I think I was in shock that... well... he was telling the truth. I had to think quick and make these kids realize that I should not be spending my every last penny on them even if that were the case.
I've come to a realization... and as hard as it is for me to admit it... I'm just going to say it... I MISS BEING A STUDENT. I miss sitting in a class and listening to someone for hours on end. I miss being stressed about having to write papers, and complete midterms and study for finals. I miss the social aspect of school as well. With that being said, I am bound and determined to start my masters next summer. Don't get me wrong, being a teacher is a learning experience in itself. Everyday is new. Everyday I learn something new about myself, my students and about teaching. And while I do enjoy learning something new everyday, I want to learn to love what I do, which, right now is a struggle. I am trying to change my mentality but I realize that doing so is a process and it's going to take time to change my view on all things in life, not just my job. I found a perfect quote in the discipline book I've been reading. The quote is "Everything is subject to the way we choose to see it". I choose to see the positive. That is my choice and today my mindset changes from negative to positive. I will find the positive in my life and dwell on it because that is what I choose.
So, I think I made a big boo boo. For the month of October I set a reading goal of 500 hours. What is the world was I thinking? I think I may change that to 500 minutes. Wow! I thought I was really making it attainable for my kiddos, however, when they set their personal goals I was lucky if they set it for 3 hours for the whole month and then, on top of that, some of my kiddos don't have books at home. So I have started and internal debate... Do I lend my kiddos some books from my personal library and hope that I see them again or do I refer them to the public library which is down the street??? Hmmm... what to do!
Anyway, one more week until Fall Intersession. I am counting down every minute.
Stay tuned... Next week I have P/T conferences! There is bound to be some good stories that come from it!
No comments:
Post a Comment